3am

"...because the night is the hardest time of day...and 3am knows all my secrets..."

-Lascivious Violet

I can't sleep again. Surprisingly, the carnival is being quiet. That is a huge surprise. I am able to stay on one track.

Tomorrow is quickly coming. I know I will be just fine taking care of my little girl. I will be tired, but, fine. I used to do it buzzed so, tired will be a piece of cake. She may even lie with me for a bit. She is such an amazing child. I feel so blessed just to be her mommy.

I am so glad I can even think that way. It truly is a sign of my growth. I look back at two months ago and I'm shocked and appalled that my addicted brain would even think it was okay to drink all day with her...

These are my crosses to bare. They are heavy, but, a part of the moral inventory I need to take of myself and my actions.

I was an ugly person. I did appalling things. I spoke with acid on my tongue....

I was not nice....


-Adree Does Eat